Deep Dive Into The Why - Part 2

(If you haven’t already, you may want to go back to the previous nights post - Part 1 - before reading this one, but if you don’t, you’ll probably still be able to get the gist here)

So what does understanding our desires and wants more deeply have to do with CrossFit and training? If I may use my self as en example, the point will most likely come across more clearly.

The question is, why do I (or you or we) train?

My “why” had always been that I want to get stronger or more fit. That is why I put the extra time in, so that I can progress my capacity in CrossFit.

But the important (and quite revealing) question here is, why do I want to get stronger?

When I take the time to travel down the thread of this question, I start to see what’s really going on. To be blunt and just throw it out there, it’s a lack of self love. There’s this story in my head that tells me that if I don’t reach a certain level of strength or fitness, then I am not worthy of love - I am not good enough, once I reach this level I will be ________.

This may sound ridiculous to some, and it actually feels a little crazy writing it, but when i take the time and space to sit with this “wanting” to get stronger, it is clear as day that this is what’s happening.

The root of my grasping, wanting and desire to get stronger simply comes from an inability to love and accept myself exactly as I am. That’s it.

So what happens now? What does more self love look like? Does this mean getting stronger has no meaning anymore? Please tune in tomorrow for part three of the “Deep Dive Into The Why”.

At it again! The boys are back in town!
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Workout:

12-15 Minutes to Build
3 Power Clean + 1 Jerk
*Rest :60 Between Sets

23 Minute AMRAP:
10 DB Hang Power Clean to OH (50/35# per side)
15/10 Cal Assault Bike
20/17 Cal Row
x 2 Rounds
Then 400m "recovery" run in under 3 minutes